i am having the toughest time typing today. i dunno what it is, but everything i type ends up mangled and screwed up. there? see? of course you didn't, but i had to back up and correct 5 times in that sentence (and then had to back up and correct twice in that sentence - including the word 'sentence').

hmm what's been going on lately beside me being unable to type and being crabby? watched a couple of movies. Terminator Salvation and I Hope They Serve Beer In Hell. Oh yeah, and Surrogates. The latter being just shy of having a full movie. I dunno. It just seemed like there should have been more to it.

I really liked IHTSBIH It is def. a cruder version of The Hangover. It was as funny or maybe even more funny. The thing that bothered me most about Terminator Salvation was that Christian Bale talked like he was Batman the whole movie. Seriously, dude. I love ya. But pick another fake voice to use. Maybe just maybe, I might do some reviews at blabapalooza...

I think I strained a muscle coughing and sneezing. from my neck, just below my ear, all the way down to underneath my shoulder blade, I have a running, achy pain. Maybe a nice, hot bath is in order.

my cold is worse today.
my face feels like it's going to explode, and i feel feverish, yet i have no fever.
i put beef stew in the crockpot two hours ago, and i just now found out it wasn't plugged in.
lucas colored on the back of my driver's seat in the jeep with a yellow crayon today.
our car insurance premium went up over $60 per quarter.
everything keeps piling up, and i feel like i'm just going to get crushed.
i don't feel like exercising or eating healthy or any of it.
i just can't bring myself to care right now.
we're supposed to get more snow and ice tonight.
i don't know if i can take being stuck in this house for days again.

i have a cold. yay me. my head feels like it's going to explode.

i don't care about the super bowl. that's right. i'm from indiana, and i could care less that that colts are in the super bowl. that makes me a horrible person, apparently.

My TiVo didn't record Children of the Damned, Thursday's episode of The Vampire Diaries.
I am beyond words. Mad. Pissed off. Ready to rip it out of the wall.
I have no idea when I am going to be able to watch it, either, because there's always a 5-yr-old in the vicinity if I try the computer.

I am just ... grrrr

so I made Jim help me fix the caulking on the tub last night. Score one for me. I could still use a night to really get drunk, tho. Maybe tonight. BUT SMALLVILLE IS GOING TO BE EPIC TONIGHT. Two hours? Justice Society? Michael Freakin' Shanks? Bring. It. On.

I can't watch The Vampire Diaries yet because I had to hose my bedroom closet down with white vinegar to kill the mold and mildew up the wall. The bedroom stinks really, really bad right now and the smell will probly not be going away any time soon. I just wish we could figure out where the leak is - or if it's even a leak. I'm still hoping against hope that it's the tub surround. We shall see. It's raining like a mofo outside, and it's sposed to turn to ice and snow eventually tonight. So finding out if there's a leak in the crawlspace will have to wait.

BOOKS!
6. The Catacombs (The Power #6) by Jesse Harris
7. Blood Promise (Vampire Academy #4) by Richelle Mead

The next Vampire Academy novel doesn't come out until May. I kinda got spoiled reading the first four back-to-back. I will say there were a dozen things I liked about the fourth book ... but there is one thing I kept hoping wouldn't come up. And it did. I really, really do not want this one thing to happen. Like seriously. If it happens, I will be very disappointed. It would probly make me sour toward the whole series.

so i have this friend. she's a lifelong friend. i've known her since grade school. so we're talking 20+ years. she calls me up today 'cause she wants me to take a picture of her for the guy she's living with for valentine's day. we chat. she starts asking me when she can read my book. i keep telling her never. no one is going to read it.

five minutes later she asks again. i laugh and tell her no. two minutes later she asks again. then 30 seconds later. then proceeds to beg me.

THIS is why i shouldn't have even told ANYONE i was doing it. i don't want anyone to read it. i don't care how close we are or how much you like to read or how much you are just so blasted sure you will like my book. YOU ARE NOT READING IT. this was the end of the conversation:

misty: c'mon. you know how much i like to read.
me: yes, but you still aren't reading this.
misty: c'mon. i won't say a word about it after you let me.
me: no. i said no.
misty: fine. i'll just tell your mother.
me: fine. she's not reading it, either.

*sigh* another good day shot to hell just from a simple phone conversation. that type of thing really brings me down.

actually it doesn't! lol aside from being flat broke until jim gets paid on friday, everything here at the pingle house is great :) getting ready to file our taxes (and get a nice chunk of change back) ... just being home with lucas this past year as been a great experience. i wouldn't trade it for the world. he keeps me on my toes, but i wouldn't have it any other way.

i did, however, have a nightmare about my accident when i was dozing off last night. woke me up so much i was up for 3 hours afterwards. i couldn't get the image out of my mind once it was there.

hmmmm 10 randoms:

1. lucas is obsessed with Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs - the movie
2. and Phineas and Ferb
3. lucas was sick last week and i was sick saturday. puking /=fun
4. i'm making chicken fried rice for dinner. and wontons. from a box. i can't wait to start making my own wontons.
5. i got the elliptical out of its holiday hiding place finally. gonna start back on it tonight. gonna cut back on the other exercises to work it in. wanna make sure i don't over do it.
6. i'm totally into this FB application called (fluff)Friends. i've met some really nice people in the forums there, too :)
7. i would like there to a be a TV show with ian somerhalder, tom welling and matthew bomer playing brothers. no plot. just them talking onscreen or something.
8. i have a twitter acct but never post. so why do i have one? to stalk follow ian somerhalder.
9. the local newspapers are doing stories on me and jim. husband+wife authors. serious.
10. ( have i mentioned lately that i love my bedding set... )

i wish i were kidding when i said we have two shows for every hour block of thursday primetime. and did i mention some of those blocks have three shows? no. freakin. kiddin.

taking lucas to the doctor today. he started throwing up tuesday night, but was fine up until last night ... at which time he vomited again. it's probly a virus, and they won't do anything about it, but at least i'll know. it's scaring me that he's barely eating or drinking. he had a bite of a pop tart this morning and half a glass of apple juice.

i am finished editing and rewriting my NaNoWriMo entry. i've been toying with adding some stuff, but then i thought i'm going to be the only one reading it. do i really need to make it more engaging?

that's it. i'm boring right now.

wtf? i got a spammy comment on one of my posts and i just got friended by a spammy acct? wtf is up? and how do i make it stop? is the only way making my journal entirely friends only?

grrr i have just been so irritated lately. i wanna smack everyone. everyone except jim and lucas, that is. people are just rubbing me the wrong way. even my dad. he's such an ass. he is so mean to me on FB and doesn't see the problem. he says he is the way he is and he won't fake it for anyone. i wasn't aware he had to fake being nice to me. that makes me feel great.

books! i am, well, way ahead of myself this year. my goal for the year is 25.
3. Shadow Kiss (Vampire Academy #3) by Richelle Mead
4. The Diary (The Power #4) by Jesse Harris
5. Aidan's Fate (The Power #5) by Jesse Harris

i'm getting ready to head to the library in a few minutes. i hope they have the fourth Vampire Academy book. if not, i want the newest John Saul. Jim wants me to get him the newest Stephen King book, and i kinda wanna read that, too.

we've actually been discussing me not going back to work in the fall ... maybe while lucas is in kindergarten, i might need to stay home. lucas isn't really good with change. i have a feeling i'll be getting called to school every day because he's done one thing or another. it almost makes me just wanna homeschool him. but he's a social kid. homeschooling might make him backpedal.

and about my previous post: so not gonna happen. i was told he didn't want to talk about it anymore. he also says he's worried about my arm. ahh well.

Have I mentioned this? If not, please let this be my declaration. I'm happy with this development. I didn't want to think the worst. (and why don't have i have white collar icons?)
yay!

2010 books (my goal is 25 books)
1. Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead
2. Frostbite (Vampire Academy #2) by Richelle Mead

I am currently working on the third book. I'm still disappointed they killed my fave character in the second book.

Vampire Diaries comes back Thursday. Finally. My prediction is that the person Elena hit with her car is Damon. I dunno why I think that. I just do.

i never told you what i do for a living
by my chemical romance

Stay out of the light
Or the photograph that I gave you
You can say a prayer if you need to
Or just get in line and I'll grieve you
Can I meet you, alone
Another night and I'll see you
Another night and I'll be you
Some other way to continue
To hide my face

[Chorus:]
Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe
The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes
I keep a book of the names and those

Only go so far 'til you bury them
So deep and down we go

Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace
I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day

[Chorus:]
Another knife in my hands
A stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe
It ain't the money and it sure as hell ain't just for the fame
It's for the bodies I claim and lose

Only go so far 'til you bury them
So deep and down we go

Down

And down we go
And down we go
And down we go
And we all fall down

I tried
I tried

And we'll all dance alone to the tune of your death
We'll love again, we'll laugh again
And it's better off this way

And never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
And we're all dead now.

Well never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
And we're all dead now.

Well I tried
One more night
One more night
well I'm laughin' out, cryin' out, laughin' out loud
I tried, well I tried, well I tried,
'Cause I tried, but I lied
I lied

I tried
I tried
I tried, well

And we'll love again, we'll laugh again
We'll cry again and we'll dance again
And it's better off this way
So much better off this way
I can't clean the blood off the sheets in my bed

And never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
And we're all dead now

i've been listening to jim and lucas arguing while playing new super mario brothers until i just want to smack them both. actually, mostly it's jim yelling at lucas for doing this or that. i am just about over it. headphones. ipod. my new best friends.

despite my working with the wiifit every day and cutting back on portions and watching what those portions are of, i have yet to lose weight. actually, i'm gaining weight. i realize with more exercise comes more muscle, but 2 weeks of gain and no loss? seriously? it's enough to make me wanna just be bulemic or anorexic or whatever is en vogue now. again, i don't want "you can do it! keep going!" comments. seriously. just don't.

i've talked jim into starting on ground turkey instead of ground beef. well, most of the time. sometimes turkey just doesn't taste right with things. spaghetti, chili, tacos ... these are all things that could be turkey substitute. speaking of ground turkey, i came up with the coolest taco recipe (sorry if i really didn't invent it, but i didn't get it from anywhere but my mind haha). it's ground turkey, topped with lettuce, ranch dressing (fat free of course) and bacon bits. all wrapped up in a soft taco shell (next time i'm going to buy wheat shells for me). even jim liked it.

i need to get back to editing my novel so i can get it submitted to get my proof copy. my sucktastic novel. the one that i spent an entire month on and it still ended up pretty much crap. ahh well. i just don't think i have a talent for writing. or my talent is writing crap. heh

i'm going to work on some reviews for blabapalooza  right now. seriously. i don't wanna give kelly a heart attack or anything, but there will be at least two posted today.

i am seriously flipping over who has been cast as matt and vicki's wayward, drunken, absentee mother on Vampire Diaries.
Such perfection.

I won't let the cat out of the bag, for those who don't want to be spoiled (apparently I'm pretty horrible about spoiling people), so yeah.
I can't promise the comments won't have spoilers in them, tho!

so i'm on this health and fitness kick. and i'm really trying. trying to force the boys in my house to eat healthier is not going well, too. anyway, i'm on the wiifit plus at least 30 minutes every day, and as soon as we get the christmas tree taken down and can put the elliptical back in its place, i'll be on there, too. i'm not losing much weight, but at least i'm out there and active. i lost 15lbs last year between september and november, and so far, the weight is staying off.

they are doing this thing in my county - ways of wellness. it's a 16-week program (i think 16 weeks) and you're on teams (or individual) and you set a goal for yourself to eat healthier, walk 5 miles a day, exercise 30 minutes, walk however many steps a day, whatever. but i don't do well with group things like that. i always feel like people are staring at me, in utter disbelief of how fat i am. i don't like being judged by the same people who have been judging me my whole life. and i know more than a few people who will be participating were horrible to me even back when i was skinny. so i don't really wanna do it ... but i know i should. you get a free t-shirt, pedometer and health screening at the kick-off on jan. 16. but i just don't think i can do it. i can't have people judging me. i don't need the health screening to tell me i need to lose weight, i have way too many t-shirts and my new ipod has a kick-ass pedometer built in.

in conjunction, my friend erin has been certified for zumba, which is apparently this fitness dance thing. i've never been, but a lot of people around here love it. she is offering free zumba classes to those who sign up for ways of wellness during the 16 weeks of the program. so i got excited thinking it would be so cool :) then i started seeing people tell her they couldn't wait for zumba either. and those people, the ones all excited, were the same people who were all judge-y in high school and after. the people who pretend to be nice, and then snicker as you walk away. trust me, i know how high school it sounds, but in small towns, high school never stops. you get assigned your place in high school around here, and you stay there. there is no breaking out.

so that's pretty much it in a nutshell.
/end whine

used my birthday money for a pedicure this morning, and boy are my feet happy!
OPI's Most Honorable Red.
I went out in 10F weather in light capris and sandals this morning. but it was worth it.

Destany Cook Pingle was just shocked to see Zac Efron on an episode of Firefly as Jim and I are rewatching the series. Does that take Firefly down a notch or Zac Efron up a notch? I ponder.

just sharing my FB status.

a few more books...

19. The Power #1: The Possession by Jesse Harris
20. The Power #2: The Witness by Jesse Harrie
21. The Power #3: The Fear Experiment by Jesse Harris.

I've started Vampire Academy, but I dunno if I'll get it done by the end of the year. Maybe.

What else? Not much. Just been spending time with Lucas these past two weeks. We went to the library this morning and got new books. Story Hour starts again on Tuesday, and I'll be glad of it. Altho I'm considering switching him to the Thursday afternoon class. There's less kids that day and it's less crowded. Sometimes the Tuesday morning session is so crowded the kids all can't sit on the rug. And the rug's big.

We had Lucas' Christmas pictures taken, and I'd post them, but there's a thing with the photographer where she doesn't want us to scan them ourselves. I don't blame her. I mean, photography is her income, so she's bound to be worried about copying. Anyway, they are on FB. If you are friends with me, you can see where she tagged me in the photos. My little man is growing up.

We went out to eat last night with my BFF Michelle and her family. We exchanged Christmas and birthday gifts. This year was just so hectic we barely had time to get together. If it wasn't one of the kids sick, it was one of us. So last night was fun :) Jim's bringing home dinner tonight, and Lucas is going to spend the night at Mom's with my niece and nephew. She's going to be watching them tomorrow, so she thought it best to have a slumber party with all three of them tonight.

Not much else going on. I'm going to have to use a chunk of my Christmas money to pay my eye doctor bill. yuck. I'm not excited. I am spending some of it to go back to this really good Japanese steakhouse. My birthday money is going for a pedicure on Saturday. I am in dire need.

As for my hand and arm, it's almost there. My hand just feels tingly and asleep most of the time; as opposed to the numb feeling I used to have. Every once in a while I'll get a persistent, random phantom pain or itch that will almost drive me mad ... then the next day I'll feel just a little bit more of my finger. It's actually quite cool.

it's all lucas wants to do. there's this game where you "ride" a bicycle and ride around looking for these flags. he's obsessed with it. i'm trying not to overdo it. 30 minutes per day for me. then i'll build up. my body has been aching since i started, so i really don't wanna overdo it.

the fluttering in my chest has stopped. i haven't had it since christmas eve. i went to walmart today to get groceries, tho, and bought some generic pepcid ac. i took one of the pills about an hour ago, and i have some heartburn right now. just a smidge. not enough to amount to anything. so we'll see if it goes away. i have been making an effort to stay away from foods that may cause acid reflux. i've been trying to drink as much water as possible (yuck!) to see if that helps, too. i dunno. i really think i'm just getting old :(

christmas was very good :) santa brought me a new ipod nano, 5th generation. it takes video! yay! i also got some rustic americana decos for the living room, a wok and a cookie scoop.